♥ Expensive.Little.Mister.Obsession

2009-12-15T20:25:00.002+08:00

I feel so helpless right now. I can't do anything seriously. Blank.

Why does it always have to happen to us? I really didn't see it coming. Wait, I didn't even know that it could happen. Now that he's in someplaceIdon'twishtomention, it hurts me even more. I almost blacked out when I got the news. I feel like cursing out loud, but that won't help. Why does it have to be at this point of time? I really feel like killing myself because of this. But on the other hand, at least he would learn his lesson.

I need to see him. I really need to. Oh God, just help me this once.

2009-12-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

OMG! Staying at home,literally, kills me. GAHHHHH!

This whole week have been going out though. To grandmother's house that is. Helped her pack her stuff at her house there. the rivalries go on, never ending story to it. While packing her stuff, saw lots of things. HAHAHA. Let's list down the things I "stole" :

1) 4 Gucci Bags [ NEVER used before. Still brand new. My late grandfather bought it for his daughters, but apparently, none of them took it. So, I took it. (: ]

2) Louis Vuitton Laptop bag. [ It was my aunt's I think. Oh well, I don't need her consent to take it. ]

3) Big Sylvester soft toy.

4) Tweety Bird soft toy [ in YELLOW. ]

5) Doraemon Cushion

6) Winnie the Pooh mini soft toy.

7) A black beret

8) Baju Kurung??

Lol. Yeah, basically that were it. ALL OF IT ARE NEW. happiness! Haha! Okay la, gtg.

TOODLES LOVES.

2009-11-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

TAPE ME ON YOUR VIDEO PHONE I CAN HANDLE YOU
WATCH ME ON YOUR VIDEO PHONE.

LOL. Somehow I am like addicted to that song. HAHAH! Gross video, but, the tune quite nice. Anyway, my brother bought a new phone today. I am like effing pissed off please. His phone is so freaking expensive even though his results were suckish like hell. Eurgh. He got like a bloody 212. Seriously, I think my brothers are born stupid. GOD. Like babi, now my parents expectations of me are like so high. SO PISSED!

I want to get new phone. Dont care. Gonna bug my parents. Haha! My phone spoil already. Its switching off by itself now. Crazy phone. I just remembered,lol, my parents havent given me a birthday present. Like wtf. Haiz.

I really got nothing to say. I am getting bored by day. Can't work, can't go out. STUCK! I WANT CASHHHH$$$$$! I NEED TO GO SHOPPING! LIKE EFFING BADLY.

So toodles lovelies!

2009-11-25T18:45:00.001+08:00

I NEED MONEY,
so that i can buy rifdi's present(:

2009-11-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

I am going insane at the moment. I dont know what to do. Everything just has to beat down to this.

Frankly, I never wanted to leave him. Really. And now, he's asking for help, and I am struggling to help him out. I feel so awful right now. Why the hell must it have happened to him?

Or maybe I just trusted him too much? Maybe all of this was a lie. Maybe it was just to set me up. I dont know.

Can anyone help me out and give me answers??

This is the consequence for loving and trusting someone too much. I'm hating it.

2009-11-16T13:42:00.002+08:00

YOU PEOPLE HAVE HAVE TO WATCH THIS VIDEO.

His voice is hot or whaaaaat? omg. and yeah, he messed up part of the lyrics,but,gah, still!

PARTY TIME!!

2009-11-16T13:10:00.002+08:00

O's are finally finally over. YESSAR!

Wanted to move to tumblr, but the codes gave me so much headache. Menyampah. Back here to blogger. -.-

Graduation is like tomorrow. I am quite nervous. HAHAHA! Like why must I be nervous?? pfft. -.- Going to dress up something or somewhat like a genie.Hope I can pull it off. HAHAH!

Anyway, holidays are going to be dreading and long. Mom's not allowing me to work, because I would have my spinal operation soon, which I totally have forgotten about during my O's fever. Gah. Quite stressed about the op actually. This one really quite scared.HAHAH. And speaking about that, I won't be able to ride the G-Max if I have my operation soon! Aww man. Can we like ride the G-Max soon?? please please please.

Feeling kind of bored at home. And it's been raining like non-stop. Can't go anywhere. Pissed off. Haiz.

Nothing else to say.

TOODLES loves.

2009-08-31T16:20:00.000+08:00

I know I said I wouldn't be posting, but...
Just one thing,

IMYSVM. <3333

haish,miss that chap so much. xoxo
takpe, a few more days to go.

you can make it khaliesah!

okay, TO ALL GRADUATING CLASSES,

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR PRELIMS!!
LET'S WORK HARD TOGETHER.

2009-08-18T19:51:00.000+08:00

MY BLOG WILL BE DEAD FROM TODAY ONWARDS.

I AM GOING TO MUG MY WAY THROUGH PRELIM NEXT WEEK.

THUS, THIS BLOG, WOULD BE DEAD UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE.

I HOPE YOU'D MISS ME.

everything's back to normal again.
I feel ecstatic,and hope it stays like that.

HASTA LA VISTA PEOPLE.

2009-08-10T20:24:00.004+08:00

ONE THING.

NARRATIVE ESSAY JUST SUCKS TO THE CORE.

I have been trying to figure out how the hell to start my narrative essay for 1.5 hours. And this is the result.

"The blaring ringtone coming from the pink LGK970 handphone disrupts the silence that had filled the air."

That is what I call UBBERLY PATHETIC. -_____________________________-

MY GOODNESS.I can never bring myself to write narrative, do you know that???

Alright,got to complete this thing by tonight.

Fuck you.
Fuck you very very much.
Coz we hate what you do,
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch.

Despite it being vulgar,I just love the bubbly tune of this song.

TOODLES PEOPLES.

2009-08-06T21:11:00.004+08:00

It has been such an exhausting week. Even though I have slept for 6/7 hours each day,it doesn't seem to be enough. I just feel that this week although its short,but it seemed endless!!

This week's lesson is dry.Since when it wasn't? So then, had Physics SPA this week. Okay la,I didn't screw it up. That's all I know. Hmm,what else. And AMaths mock, aduhai. Tak leh angz already, It was a Cedar Girls' Paper,like CRAAAAAP.

Today, was super fun. Mr Damian didn't come today = NO E.L.T = NO CHEM REMEDIAL = HAPPINESS!

Hahha! Yeah,so before lessons started in the morning, Black Thursday played the 2009 National Day song. AKU SUNGGUH TIDAK CAIR DENGAN SUARA FEIZUL. oops. I liked how Haikal plays the drum set,unique. But it could have been much better if the amplifier wasn't blasting out too loudly. Then,it'll be nice. Mimi kalau part main guitar aje baru otak macam normal sikit, kalau tak high macam orang gila.

So after school, watched the pathetic Teacher's Day audition. Waited for around 40 mins for the first group to audition.Really pathetic. And there not many people who auditioned for Teachers' Day this year. Sadness. Heard the first band already, cannot take it. The lead singer was off tune most of the time. Hhehe. Hanah & me requested Jiggy to audition for Teachers' Day with his band, Black Thursday. Actually, Sec 4s cannot audition. But since they had performed in the morning just now, & probably there were not good performances, Mr Timothy Tan allowed them to play without going through auditions and rehearsals!!!! <333

Black Thursday can do a waaaaaaaaaaaaay better job than those kids. If the programme for Teachers' Day included them, I think I'd just faint on the spot. Hancur lagu yang sedap-sedap.

Somehow, I feel very tired now. So I shall sleep. I need to be in school early tomorrow, to help the Malay Dancers with their make up. Hehehe. Professionals coming in already. People from other CCAs calling in for Khaliesah,Rifdi and Shikin for our service. Okay,that sounds wrong. But, you get what I mean right?LOL.

TOODLES SAYANGS...!<3333

-I still can't get over you.Fuck, how long more must I endure this shit?

2009-08-02T22:10:00.003+08:00

I.
STILL.
CANNOT.
GET.
OVER.
SAM TSUI.
BECAUSE.
I
LOVE
HIS
VOICE
SO
MUCH!! <3333

Mir! GET BACK! STAND BACK!!! haahh. you can only jadi his scandal for
one day, IF I am kind enough to do so.Tak boleh lebih lebih.

Okay,so went out with cousin today. Went to Vivo City. As usual, I would expect her to be late. This time, she is 1 hour 15mins late. And during this time, I managed to get Rifdi's and Tiq's present first! Fiz, I am so sorry. Your present coming! Because ake tak cukup $$$ just now. I found a nice sling bag for you. Shall buy for you ASAP. I am so sorry!!!!

Alright,so went window shopping.Apparently, both of us were broke. HAHA!

Oh did I say that I ate Ben & Jerry's ice cream just now? Heavenly. And my cousin couldn't resist her temptation from Ben & Jerry's. Before she met me, she vowed not eat any ice cream for the whole week. And btw, she just came back from the gym. After 2 hours after making that vow, she... broke it. HAHAHAHAAHHA! I lmao-ed at her so loudly. Apa sahaja. Crazy girl.

Oh yes, went from shop to shop looking for clothes. First went to "Pull and Bear". My cousin was head over heels with this jacket,just because it had studs. -_______________________-
She even asked the person at the counter to reserve the jacket for her. I was like, "Say whaaat?"
And the jacket was reserved for her.

After that, went to "Forever 21". I am in love with a halter neck cardigan!!! So naishhhh!!! But the price also lagi nice. $53. THANKS EHHHHS.

Then went to River Island. WAHHHHH!! I LOVE EVERYTHING THAT I SEE LA!!! All so jambu. And guess what? The prices are also jam-to-the-bu. There's like this sleeveless tee which has very little things printed on it, and the price tag revealed the numbers 6,0. Gi mamz la! So damn ex. BUT,I so totally love the dresses there. So cute,and prwetty.

Lastly,went to Zara. This one no need to say la ahh. Even though outside got sign board 70% off,gi mamz la 70% off. Tak ada pun yang 70% off. All is like above $40??? Me and my cousin were like, 70% off ahh? Then there's this heels with studs on it, guess how much? $299!! Macam gila right???

So in the end bought nothing and went home.HAHAH! Ohh,my cousin said she'll buy for me checkard kemaja in London. Pink and black one. HAHAHA! I love her man! HEHHEHE! Love it. Going to ask her buy 2 for me. Yessar!!

Alrights people. I should be off to bed now.

Good nights.

2009-08-01T20:40:00.005+08:00

I am addicted to Sam Tsui's voice. He just makes me meltsssss.

Ohhh....Why is he so hot and his voice like an angel??Wait,another one. This song is from HSM3.I don't really like the original one. But Sam Tsui just make me change my mind every time I hear his soothing voice. AHHHH!! OMG,I JUST LOVE THIS GUY... MY GOODNESS!!

nice right??
alahai.i wish i would have a boyfriend with that kind of voice. I wouldn't want to leave his side sia!i would like ask him to sing for me 24/7!!!
I would want him to sing this song(below) for me,LIVE!

OH MY GODD,SAM TSUI,ILYMM!! <333

I am so obessesed over his voice. SO NICE.it's just so melodious.It can be like my lullaby. aduh.give me something to calm me down. omgomgomg!!

KHALIESAH STOP IT!!!!

okay,let's leave him aside first. Haiz. I didn't go out again today. Had some problems.Not me,but my cousin. Confirmed tomorrow would be going out.Okay. Went grocery shopping with family. Like woah. tak pernah pernah. HAHAH. I wanted to buy heh,snacks. but couldn't find healthy and nice ones.So didn't buy.

Okay, got nothing more to say except, I LOVE SAM TSUI! I THINK HE'S HOT,PHYSICALLY AND VOCALLY.

HASTA LA VISTA HONEHHH. :D

~~i don't wish to remember you.get out of my mind,like NOW.~~

2009-07-31T21:46:00.003+08:00

I HEARTSS HEARTSS THIS VERSION OF SUGAR.

THIS GUY HAS THE VOICE OF AN ANGEL MANN..! His voice makes my heart just melt. Ohemmgeeee..!!

Despite all those above, THIS ONE IS STILL THE B.E.S.T!! <3333

WOAAAAHHH!THEIR VOICES SO ANGELIC. All so cute!! Ohhemmgee.I need these songs! Like OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!Awesome voice.

Okay,khaliesah. Stop it. BUT IT'S SO NICE. damn. Alright, today school was okay.TGIF. Remedial all cancelled.Postponed to next Thursday. Hmm, I need to prepare for Speech Day. Like OHHEMMGEE. Next week is like whaat? Handing Down Ceremony.Oh gosh. So many things to do,so little time. Need to study, need to do homework, need to prepare for Speech Day, need to buy clothes,need to.... There is just too many to list. Let's forget about listing all of them out.

So, tomorrow I am going out. I hope la. I scared my cousin can't make it last minute,then I'll be so sian at home. Oh wells.

Okay,I feel sleepy, though it's only 10.30pm. Haish. Nights people.

2009-07-28T19:58:00.002+08:00

TIREEEED. x/

School ended late today. Ended at 5.30pm. Do you know how draggy the English Compre thingy was...? It's like so tak perlu punya workshop la sey. Then after that, went to meet Mdm Choo for Speech Day Emcee script. Went out of school at what, 6pm? Let's see that would be 9 hours of classes! That is equivalent to your sleeping time! In fact 1 hour more than your average sleeping time!! Siao sia. Going bongus already!! You study more than you sleep,when sleeping is more important for your body to function! Geez.

Alright, Rifdi and Hanah sent me a message. Let's start with Rifdi's.

Rifdi's message

Guess what we are exactly a month to prelim. Mampos

The last word is an apt word for my situation. Let me reapeat that. MAMPOS. M-A-M (MAM), P-O-S (POS) = MAMPOS.

I still haven't wake up my idea yet. That is sick. I still have plenty of chapters to cover before Prelim. That's just plainly sick.

Message from Hanah

Hey ppl! Jiayou 4 ur chem spa skill 3 this wk! All the best!

Another killer. It's not this week. It's TOMORROW. -.-
And I haven't memorised how to do experiments and the graphs and the QA and so much more.The ironic thing though is I.AM.STILL.ON.THIS.LAPPY.BLOGGING.HOW.FUN.IS.THAT.

Great. Just so very great. Let's just say I appreciated those messages.GARH. Like OMG,calling for,SOS!!

Okay.Enough is enough.Let me get my butt off, and start mugging. God, I really need help. I swear I do.

TOODLES. <3333

2009-07-27T20:30:00.002+08:00

LOL-ing day today. (Since when the days were never filled with MY laughter?? o.0 )

No elaboration needed.I know,you know, we know, they don't know.Hahaha. Haiyo, then there's like so many people today yang belum lagi nak WAKE UP yet. Aku ni dah terpinga-pinga bila dia orang ni semua nak sedar diri sikit. Nampaknya, seumur hidup pun dorang takkan sedar diri. Haiz..Sedih eh nasib dorang? My fullest condolences,eh salah,"Empathy".

Anyways, kind of tiring today. Physics was rather dry today except for the first part of the lesson.English, watched Michael Jackson video clip,mesmerised by his dance. That is an irony,because I used to have a phobia of him that I cried every time I hear him on the radio and wail every time I see him on television. I don't know,when I was young, he looks so scary, like a ghost.

What else?Oh yes.

Today marks the 23rd year of your life on Earth. I hope you just don't get damned by the people around you. Enjoy your life while you can. Although,you would never be able to read this,but somehow, I hope you stay healthy (??) and stay away from trouble.Hahha. Good luck in everything you do. When you fail or fall, I'll be there to help you rise on your feet again. Happy Birthday. <333

What was I thinking? Aiya, see la. Too obsessed with the past, now see what I become. This drives me insane. Somebody get me my pills,so that I would suffer from amnesia and never remember him again. I wish to move on,like seriously. I really wish to do so.

Bodoh,thanks ehh for the things you have done. Like appreciated,NOT. Tengok ah,aku da jadi macam orang gila sekarang pasal kau. BODOWHHSK.

Okay,I am not in my right mindset.I better go, before the post gets more....unbearable.

BYE BYE SAYANGS. <33333

2009-07-26T19:45:00.002+08:00

2nd post for the day.

Changed my picture! Hhaha,coz that pic I used for FB already. So let me have some variety.LAWLZ. xD

Okay. Went out with mom,brother and grandma just now.Supposedly the plan was to pick up my another brother at Chinatown,but tak jadi because he was on the way home already. In the end, went to Popular at J.E and head back home again. Macam keje bodowh kanns?

Reached Causeway and went to Banquet to eat brunchner ( breakfast cum lunch cum dinner ).Then went to Popular again to get some books that I couldn't find at J.E's Popular. And after that I am home.

Haven't bought any of the presents yet! Like eurgh. Sorry people! I'll get it ASAP when I go to town next week aites? Hahahah! I kept procrastinating to buy their presents! Sorreh. :(

Alrights people,that's enough of me for today.Tomorrow will be the start of another week whereby I'll work my ass off again,studying in the wee hours in the morning. Haiz.Sadded.

TOODLES SAYANGS. <333

2009-07-26T13:36:00.005+08:00

Dear YUCKS,

I appreciated your comments.But hey,this is definitely not your playground. So out you go little kid. Go find your new playground to play.

2009-07-25T21:51:00.003+08:00

Burn This Fucker Down!

HAHAHA! Random line. Addicted to this line thanks to the song Funhouse by P!nk. Love it.

Changed my blogskin! Jyeah! Hahha! Something simple. Don't want have a childish skin anymore, nanti ada orang-orang yang tidak diundang memberi comment yang aku sungguh tak perlukan.

Sorry about the partly emo post yesterday.Apparently,something happened,and that explains what is written on yesterday's post. Shall not elaborate. Makes my heart cry every time I think about it.Oh wells.

So,didn't go out today. My cousin went out with her other friends. Not going out with her this week I guess.

Eh babe! When can I go out with you siolz? HAHAH!

Probably just going to visit the airport tomorrow. Yeah! The atmosphere at T3 just give me reasons to live and to smile. Anyway,I just miss the food there! Hahah!

Did nothing much today. Boredom does kill people. Alright,I think I'm off to Fantasy Land.
SLEEEPPEHHHH. :D

TOODLES PEEPS. <333

Moving On.Not.

2009-07-24T19:03:00.007+08:00

WOOOOOO!!! CHARADES!

Alright today after school was the most kekek-est day of my life.Played charades in the library.Laughed so hard.LOL. Paired up with Rifdi, then Hanah was with Shikin, Zom with Mir and Tiq with Fiz! Did a lot of stupid acts. Had to be told to shush-ed so many times.LOL. On one account, me and Rifdi got a card and the first thing we saw was "FREE WILLY". SIAK AH,macam mana nak act macam whale?? My pair only have Sea Lion and ~~Badak~~. HAHAHHA! OK.CRAP! Then Shikin and Hanah another one. DAMN FUNNY! XD

They had to act out MOMMY DEAREST. And you know how they acted it out for us to guess?

MOMMY - pretended to put the baby to sleep.
DEAREST - they put their index fingers at their temples and then acted like a DEER! haha!

We had NO UBBER CLUE what they were doing for DEAREST! We were like guessing "BULL!","HORNS","DEVIL" so on and so forth. HAHAH! In a way we were relaxing our minds from the hectic school life! So fuunnn! :D

Oh yes.Did I mention that over lunch I had infamously declared that I would set up a ~~Booby Badak~~ Academy/University?? I probably wasn't in the right mindset! HOW TO BUILD ACADEMY?NO MONEEEYYYYYY!! :'(

Back to topic.I have a habit of digressing to another topic.Not good. :(
So anyway, I WANT PLAY CHARADES AGAIN. Just being with SBH<3, it's just so therapeutic.HAHAH!

Had Chem Test today. My mind was blank all of a sudden,and those questions which seem so familiar,just slip out of my memory storage like that,as if it was deleted my my memory space! I studied so hard for it, yet due to panic,I lost it all. GRRRHHH!! But still,I think I can still make it,though. Wait,I don't think I can. My drawing were mostly wrong,didn't put bracket and all that! Like whatiswrongwithme?

Tomorrow going out with cousin,I think.If she doesn't need to work,that is. HAHA. If I do go out tomorrow, I would get these things for some people :

- Yellow watch for Rifdi ( Belated birthday present )
- Present for Tiq ( It's a surprise Tiq! )
- Clothes ( I need to "update" my cupboard )

Okay. I don't know if I should go to T3 tomorrow. I just feel like sitting down and reflecting.Oh wells. I shall do that tomorrow or Sunday,depends on my weekend schedule.

Somehow,I just feel so tired of chasing one thing after another. It's pointless of me doing so,yet I am still doing it. If it even makes sense to me right now, I would not bother. But right now, the puzzle is quizzing me too much that I can't take it anymore. God,help me,please. Don't drag this any further.I don't wish to be in this situation any longer,just get me out of this,please. I don't want to be disillusioned by fantasy and forget what reality has in store for me. I want to live, I don't wish to be dead yet. I am left in between these 2 worlds,I just don't know which path to take. One is too good to be true, while the other is just too painful to go through. Though it is quite a clear cut, but I can't bear to face both the consequences. It's too agonizing for me to even face it. Get me out of my misery fast. I don't want to see myself breaking into shredded pieces in the future. Piece me back like how I used to be. Let bygones be bygones. I don't want history to repeat itself. Please.

I need my pills to secure me in life,
I need to revive myself from this shit.
Only one thing can erase all this pain in
me,
There's nothing else other than you.
<3

"I promise I won't leave you,because ilysm baby." - you promised,remember?never got it off from my mind.it's stuck like glue,do you know that?

imysvm.sweet memories,bitter endings.yet,I'm still finding you.

2009-07-22T20:24:00.005+08:00

Malay Listening Comprehension was fun! Actually before LC starts,it was fun.But after that,not fun already.HAHAH!
Lazy to insert details.

CHERRY BOMB.

Heheh! :)
Okay.I was relatively very high today. I have upgraded myself from 3 horns to... 4 horns.Like WOAH! No la,it's because I bun-ed up my hair today. Then during lessons,I was bored,so I inserted like 3 of my markers into my hair. One more was Sheena's hair "chopstick" [ LOL.I always pretend that it's my magic wand and go "EXPECTO PATRONUM...!!" ]. So then I had four of them in my hair,as if there was something jutting out from my head! -.-

I played with it as if I was a Japanese warrior,taking out each of them as if they were weapons. I swear, I was mentally ill at that point of time. I did not do it to attract attention,but did it out of boredom! =.=

Hmmm.What else? OH YEAH!Yesterday, I took picture with SBH <33, Mr Liu, Jolene( -_________- ) and etc. Like APA SAHAJA.

Okay,back to today. Reached Woodlands Bus Interchange at 6.15pm. By then I was superbly tired,coz I only slept for 4 hours I think? These past few days been either sleeping very late,or waking up 2 or 3 in the morning to study. I need my EIGHT HOURS BACK! HHAH. apparently,I can't,not at this point of time.

Back to story,got off the bus and I saw my pangkat pakcik who is the same age as me. He's in bloody Anderson,like whatever! And he said this to me,

Eh,lagi 69 hari. Ingat tau. (gives me that give-me-what-I-want-on-that-day
kind of face)

I was like, "Huh?69 more days? What is coming in 69 more days?"
And then, I remembered. HARI RAYA. He was expecting me to ask forgiveness from him.

PEGI JALAN DA!

hahah! I never do anything wrong must ask forgiveness from him?neyneyney.He is the one supposed to ask forgiveness from ME,after all the things he had done ehh. Abeh tersengeh-sengeh macam aku nak minta maaf gitu.Please.I.GOT.CLASS. hmph!

Wanted to take 969,but it was full. Then dont know why, I felt like walking home after centuries of not doing so.HHAHA! Like what the hell,I know.

And here I am using this laptop,not studying. THANKS EHHHH. Hahaha. Alright peeps,till next time!

TOODLES MY DARLINGSSSS!! <3333

I do not know why that name just keeps appearing when I am trying to get over it.Thanks Cambridge,for making me dwell over that name all over again.

2009-07-20T03:32:00.002+08:00

I AM UP AT THREE IN THE MORNING STUDYING! YEAH!

Hhaha! And I don't know what goes in my head currently. History essay is kiiling me! LOL. And I realised I only slept for 4 hours.

SO PEOPLE!! BEWARE! I AM GOING TO GET HIGH IN SCHOOL! JYEAH!

Alright,better continue with my studying.Hehehe!

Toodles loves. <3

2009-07-18T16:06:00.008+08:00

Il faut tourner sa langue sept fois dans sa bouche avant de parler.

Translation : One must turn the tongue seven times in the mouth before speaking = Think before you speak.

This quote is intriguing to me. The quote is originally in French,and the quote "Think before you speak" evolves from it. When you understand human behaviour well, you would realise that humans for at least a point in their life would,inadvertently,talk about things that causes a swirl in other people's emotions. No, I have never felt this feeling before,but I have seen this happen in certain occasions.

Humans tend to be so confident of themselves -- over-confident to be precise -- that they think of themselves as grandeur beings. This is the character that brings much self-destruction. This is also the character of a person that I feel suffocated to be surrounded by. Contempt, is the word to describe how I feel about such people. It disgusts me to be around them because all they care about are themselves,no one else but them.A prepostorous act. Their actions are parallel to pompous brats whose every actions just brings them a notch closer to hell. This is evident as seen in Hollywood movies such as "Wildchild",whereby a rich girl was sent to a school in England because of her precarious acts. Though it was created for entertainment purposes, it,too, sends a message to those watching. A clear message that an over-the-top character just deteriorates a person's conscience.

The stigma still stays in the minds of those influenced by the monstrous media.However, if we were to be an optimist,not all behave in this way. A minor percentage of beings are cautious of what they say. For example,artists and celebrities are left with no choice but to mind what they say in public. If not careful, they would be swarmed by paparazzi. The unwanted infamy caused by persistent scandalous freelance photographers would result in their downfall as a star with reports that are constantly not precise. At times, people feel quashed by the things that they have to face. People should get a life and mind their own business,because they have yet to feel
asphyxiated with such presence.Once they do,they regret all the doings that they did, feel sinful of their actions,but nothing they do could reverse time. Like a Hebrew saying , "Mind what you say,for it might have great consequence.". It does not only apply to words,but actions too.

In the end, the way that humans react towards the surrounding may be destructible to self as well as cause undesired circumstances in a society. However much we think before we speak, we would somehow just stumble upon the unforseen situations that comes right before our eyes.May it be good or bad,but the best thing about thinking before we speak is how we have had saved our souls from being damned by earthlings all over.

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Composition. Yessar! Well,not really. I just felt like expressing some things in a mature and thoughtful way. Just have a look at my tagboard,apparently some malicious girl is envy of my presence that she's acting so highly of herself.

To Samatha : I am a stubborn person. I do things the way that I want and no words or actions can change them.Too bad,girl,if your motive was to get me to be all emo over the rubbish that you said.Say whatever you want, I love myself more than to believe in such rubbish talk by other people.I have inseparable faith in what I believe in Life,that's more important than you are.Get on with your life. Don't be like a liquid with no directions in life. You've just wasted your time on me,because I don't give a damn of what you say. So, pack your words,store them in your memory and get going in your journey. Go, while I am being nice. Don't try to push me to my ultimate limits. Gratias tibi ago. [P.S : Do you have a problem with me being an Elmo freak?At least I am an Elmo freak,while you are just a freak who lost her sense of direction.Shukran.]

Oh,and why did I just let time let loose on such things?Like whatever! Now,I have a thousand and one homework to do. Actually not to the extent of a thousand and one, but just... a lot. Hmm. Yesterday,it just a normal day. Since I just recovered, I had to wear a mask. I admit, I look like a retard in a mask,but its called social responsibility. Hahaha. The day just passed by so fast,maybe because I had missed out on a lot of things in school. That's why I had to catch up on a lot of things.Hahah! But, fun is also another factor that make time fly so fast.

So,yesterday was like a class bonding for a group of us. All of a sudden this upcoming list of people just started acting crazy with each other and we didn't know that we had much things to share with and have something in common,that is a fun life.

Those peeps :
- Farhanah
- Fiz
- Joanne
- Jolene
- Jewel
- Rifdi
- Sheena
- Shikin
- Zhen Yi

And of course,myself! We had a good laugh. Fun,fun,fun! Made fun of each other,bonded. And we were like massaging each other?AND braiding hair? Hahah! So cool! Hehee! Love it <333.as>

Okay,that's it for today. My lengthy post might have already KIILED you! Hahah!

TATA LOVES! <333

2009-07-16T19:37:00.002+08:00

Okay.I feel much better than yesterday.FEVER'S OUT! HELL YEAH! But I still have to deal with this "running nose with track shoes" [inside joke with Boss.]HAHAHA! Apparently, I am not able to smell anything.It's blocked. Oh god.

So,I heard that there's a lot of homework.LIKE WOAH....! Plane Geometry. Bull@#$#! I don't have a clue on what to do for it. HAHAH. I will soon catch up,dont worry!

You know what? Graduation night is on the 17th of November. And I still have yet to decide what to wear,how to do my hair and how to dress up?? AHHH. But, wait,O LEBEL'S first. HAHAHA.And I am broke this week.I don't know where to get the $55 to pay for Graduation night.STRESSED! ohh emm gee.

Got nothing left to say.

Toodles dearest!!

2009-07-15T19:10:00.003+08:00

Hmm. My cousin tagged me this on my facebook account.And since I am darn lazy to post it in my Facebook,might as well, I do it here,on my blog!

ten things I wish I could say to ten different people:

1) Mom : I didn't know you were the best I've ever had. I wish to say I do love you a million times,but it's rather unwise.HAHAH. But whatever it is,I love you mom.

2) Rifdi : SEA LION! Haha.Yes, I wish I could say this to you face to face. You were there for me through thick and thin in my secondary school life. I feel so touched by your actions. HAHA. Despite the countless stupid arguments we had with each other, we still are friends after all. Let me tell you, I could never ask for more from a good friend like you. Thanks babe for all those things you did for me. Even though you may be hurt by certain things I do and say[rewind to the under the void deck incident.] SORREH.

3) Tiq : TIQ! I WANT TO SAY THIS TO YOU! YOU REALLY MAKE PEOPLE FEEL SO JEALOUS OF YOUR INTELLIGENCE THAT I REALLY WANT TO OWN IT! haha,a confession.oops.

4) Fiz : YELLOW YELLOW YELLOW. I wish that I could sing the song about YELLOW to you the whole day.But I am not so bad to doing so.HAHAHHA!

5) SBH and my other friends : You people are the ones that I treasure most. I love you guys so much! You just light up every day of my life with joy and laughter!

6) I just miss those days being with you. Life's tough,but I just got to move on. I have tried numerous times to forget and move on,but do you know how much I hate you because you just penetrate into my skin and never want to leave me alone? thanks for all the tears that you caused me to tear for. I wished I haven't known you at all.

7) Nadiah : HEHEHEH! You RAINBOW-COLOURED-HAIR person! HAHAHAH! I miss you so much when you were in London do you know that? I was wishing that time passes very fast so that when you come back I could spend time with you. I kind of regretted for not spending time with you when you were still staying put in Singapore! See la, now I miss yoou so much when you're there! HAHAH! I look forward to see your new hairstyle!!

8) Thanks for being there and make me laugh at the jokes that you cracked.HAHA.Though it was lame,but you still made me laugh by the way you express it. Even though we have just known each other for only quite some time, I really wish that you were a friend that existed in my life a long time ago. Thanks for understanding my oh-so-random ways of expressing my thoughts.HAHAH.

9) Miss Lim : She made me love Maths! And I have to salute to her for making me believe in myself that I am able to pull through in these subjects. Thus, without her light hearted yet drilling lessons,I do not think I could even get that B3 of mine for A Maths.

10) You are my whole life. You shape me to who I am today,and you'd always be my pillar of strength.

nine things about myself:

1) I am feeling so awful right now that I can't think straight right now.

2) I am a random person.Being random just makes people laugh at me because I say certain things at the wrong point of time.

3) I have been reading my Physics text book since yesterday.And I am proud of doing so,I guess.

4) Laughing is therapeutic. I laugh to get all the unpleasant feelings out of me,thus I am a very cheerful person.

5) I can be a drama queen at times.Haha. I just act like one actually.Its just plainly ACTING.

6) I am a faithful person. Once I truly love someone,my feelings would stay true for him and it never change.So,indirectly I am saying that I am rather stubborn,if you aren't able to get the underlying meaning.

7) I was once a Pupil Volunteer for a year in my primary school whereby I help to maintain the traffic and pedestrian crossing in the school. Quite a cool experience.HAHA. You know acting like a traffic police for once in your life,but rather a mundane job.

8) I love how I lead my life now.

9) Honestly, I am studying hard to get into Medicine School in the future.I really want to get in that school because I love studying about how certain medicine cures illnesses,and I want to learn in greater depth about it.

eight ways to win my heart:

1) Be honest with me. Never lie to me because I detest liars.

2) Have a good sense of humour and making me laugh my ass off.

3) Love me for who i am deep inside,not love me for just my physical appearance.

4) Be really understanding,and make sure you don't try to piss me off. Once you do, say goodbye.

5) BUY ME CHOCOLATES AND TELL ME THAT YOU ARE SORRY A MILLION TIMES. [it's rather unjust,but that IS one of the ways]

6) Take me to the viewing mall in Changi Airport's Terminal 3. I would love it.

7) Be sincere in your actions,and don't ask for anything in return.Don't try to buy my heart with money because that ain't going to work,at all.

8) Just be yourself and don't pretend.I love people who are just being themselves,and do not live life in pretence.

seven things i can't get off my mind:

1) someone I ought NOT to think about.

2) MY PRELIMS.

3) the homework that just keeps on piling

4) Shikin's moonwalk.

5) when will I even finish this darn thing. (:

6)how to enter The Biggest Loser Asia. [I don't think I've even surpassed the criteria.]

7) Him.

six things I do before I fall asleep:

1) Look at the clock.

2) Lie down on my bed.

3) Listen to music.

4) Think about things.

5) Look up at the ceiling.

6) Check my phone if I had my alarm on at the correct time.

five people i care about:

1) Family.

2) SBH ku yang tersayang.

3) nurhalim

4) the friends that I always have a good laugh with [brigitte,val,sheena]

5) those who are less fortunate than I am.

four things i'm wearing right now:

1) Jeans. [you must be wondering why.]

2) A red Singapore Red-Cross t-shirt

3) Contact lenses

4) a rubber band with a gold heart on it.

three songs i listen to often:

1) Thinking Of You -Katy Perry

2) I Think Of You - Taj Jackson

3) Empty Frames - Neyo

two things i want to do before i die:

1) whatever i can to serve God.

2) Help people in need.

one confession:

1) I can't get over him no matter how hard I tried. I am sorry.

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Finally. I am down with a fever and flu and cough. I swear I've never felt this awful before. THREE IN ONE. Macam nak cakap thanks gitu. My fever is really playing tricks on me. Yesterday night it was still in the 37 degrees range. Today in the morning it was 38 degrees.Went to the doctor and it went down just a little to 37.6 degrees. And now its 38.1. Roller coaster ke pe?? I am really scared I won't recover by Friday.Coz what I heard from Rifdi is that once you have flu-like symptoms, you are given LoA for 7 days. SIAO AH? It'll be mental torture I tell you!

Actually woke up at 3am to do homework and study a bit. Coz yesterday I slept in early after eating Panadol Extra [which apparently doesn't seem to be working at all] and I already felt drained yesterday. I hope to recover soon! Pray for me people!!

Okay,I need to sleep. I need to fully recover by tomorrow night so that I won't miss anymore school.AHHHHH!

GOOODBYE LOVELIES. <333

2009-07-11T21:11:00.003+08:00

HOTSTUFF COMMUNICATION

Muhammad Rifdi Bin Jaffar,tolong jangan kembang ehhhs.Mentang mentang ada kedai yang pakai nama glamour kau.

okay.that shop is located at jurong west st 41,if you want to see it for yourself.HAHA.

So anyway, mom woke me up early in the morning to go to the wet market at Jurong. =.="
thanks ehh. Upon reaching,mom asked where we wanted to eat.My brother said Nasi Lemak.We went to Kopitiam.When we reached Kopitiam,my dearest little brother decided to change his mind and he wanted to eat Mee Siam. like what the... He is so fickle minded! In the end,there was no more Mee Siam. He ended up eating Yong Tau Fu like me.Thanks ehhhh.Sugguh favoured la ehh.Finished eating and I was having super bad stomach cramps! I almost couldn't walk or stand up! It was really killing me.If that were to happen in school, Rifdi would be my pinching bag.LOL!

So then,bought baju Hari Raya! Yessar! I am PINK this year. HANAH!I KNOW YOU LOVE ME. just say it. nyeehhehe. Mom said she's gonna get for me a white one too. I decided to switch to Baju Kurong this year. Felt like wearing something more traditional? Yeah.Then going to tailor a dress from the kain that my aunt bought for me. I'll see what design I can do with it. I wanted my brothers to buy pink too,but they bought this ugly shade of blue.[its not this colour.its something darker,yet bright.]YUCKS.so no taste. Pink is the in colour for guys,but sadly,they are so not into fashion like their sister.Haiz.

Okay,let's move a day behind. Friday,10.07.09. I forgot to bring my history notes yesterday. Thank God Mdm Tang didnt walk around and check.SAVED! haha. So then, after school, went down with Kin and Hanah for no reason? Sat down with Kak Aishah and Naufal in the canteen. Haha,as usual kalau ada Shikin confirm kecoh. Laugh laugh until cannot tahan. At 1.25, went up to class for Chemistry remedial. And this is the part where I got bullied.

Fiz,Kin and Hanah used Fiz's finished correction tape film to wrap it around me.Dah gitu tak pe,buat rambut aku macam setan mana pulak tu.Pas tu ambik gambar pulak tu. Suka eh korang bully aku.Part macam gini lah aku jadi mangsa.Nasib nasib. Let bygones be bygones. CHEYBAH!

HAHAH! Oh plus yesterday I was so tired,I slept at 8.30pm.Macam best gitu. Then,woke up to the voices of people downstairs.It was so irritating.So inconsiderate! I mean I know you're making a wedding ceremony downstairs la,but what the hell it was already like what,12am in the morning???Couldn't sleep until 1 or 2 am like that.thanks so very the much la.

To:i-do-not-need-to-specify-who

thanks for making me smile and laugh to myself like a retard now.i am myself once again.thanks darl. <333

Toodles lovables! <33333

2009-07-09T20:20:00.003+08:00

MALAY ORAL WAS LIKE ~~whatevershitisaidissonotneeded~~.

Yes,if,you can figure that out,good. I waited for 3 hours just to have a 10 minutes talk.Like wow.All that time for just that??cakap thanks so much ehh.sumpah aku suka.in that 3 hours,i was like very super high.Siti was my worst victim.Felt so restless,then I started acting like a retard,I swear.A lot of people were looking at my stupid acts,but heck,I was B.O.R.E.D. I laughed and laughed,and made people laugh of my stupidity. Like no motive to disturb people when they are so stressed about the Oral. HAHAH. And so,I went back at 5.20?? Yeah. Screwed,I guess.

Maths. We are chiong-ing like siao mad cuckoo people.We're finishing Kinematics tomorrow,when we only started the chapter on Wednesday.Macam best gitu kan.Mir,you are missing out like a lot a lot.HAHAH.~~Swine~~ flu girl.

Eh,dah lah.I am very so sleepy now.I dont know why.Aching all over. And adding to that,my ankle is injured.I haven't seen a doctor yet. Cool or whaat?Haha. Okay..

TOODLES,LOVES??

~~imnotgoingtofallagainbyebyeandtaksudiakunaktseeyou.~~

2009-07-06T13:14:00.002+08:00

Alright people! Last Friday was my brother's birthday,bought him a white polo tee.My parents bought him W980,say whaaaaaaaat??Ate together as a family,eat cake,open presents and that's about all.

Saturday. I went to the zoo. FUN FUN FUN. But I swear it was tiring.And we got lost a few times IN the zoo.Ironic or whaat?Hahah.Watched one animal show. The sealion so cute!!! Perangai equivalent to Rifdi's.HAHAHAHAH! I assure you,it's an exact duplicate.Sorry Di,can't help it! The sealion's name is Phillips. Then when the emcee said that he was handsome,teros kembang. Kan perangai sama..HAHHA! Enjoyed it very much. Went back at around 2pm,coz after we reached home,had to go out again to the airport. Fetched my cousins!

Finally the two of them are back! I miss them so much! And Abang Nazrul just kept growing taller[ or am I the one getting shorter? o_0 ]. Haiz.I need the genes to grow much taller than this. Okay,whatever. So yeps, WELCOME HOME, BOTH OF YOU!

Sunday had to iron one pile of clothes almost equivalent the height of mount everest.HAHA,I haven't ironed for A WEEK. LOL.Then at night, helped mom with her office work. I LOVE TO DO HER WORK LA<333.It's so fun. It has to do with money,that's why I love doing her work. LOL. There was one project that has not paid more than ONE MILLION dollars. Oh plus, the Resort World will have a Universal Studio.HAHAHA! And not only that, if I am not wrong they will even have 2 roller coaster rides.I am not sure though.But the Universal Studio is a definitely.Hahah.EXCITEMENT!Can't wait for it to be built!

And today,I am doing nothing. Going to study after I finish blogging.Hehs. Currently addcited to Chris Brown's Nothin'. Love it to bits. Go listen.HAHAH!

Okay nothing more to say.

Love you people<3333.

2009-07-02T18:27:00.003+08:00

Hah! I finished my poem during Literature class yet again.So here is the finished version.Here it goes.

I still long for you,
There's no reason that I should
You still linger in me,
That's what I abhor about you
That ghostly figure of yours,
Haunt me in every step I take
Painstakingly...

If given the opportunity,
I'd swear I'll leave everything behind
You were hope to me,
Even though you were a good for nothing
Should you have not drown me in my tears,
I wouldn't have lost sanity, I wouldn't have been
Abandoned...

Time and again,you'd change,
Each time leaving me in disdain
Nothing I did would change your perception,
Obviously ignorant to my actions
Yet,there's one question that kept replaying in my mind,
What,then,is your reason for taking me
In...?

Have you ever dreamt of fantasy,
Having only me,you and serenity?
We'll be away from reality,
Building castles and treated royally
It'll only be wishful thinking for fairytale to turn into a palace so grand
Where me and you only existed in a kingdom of
Neverland..

Read the last words of each stanza. And take the first alphabet of each of the last words,combine them,you will get one word.And that would be the title. Cool huh? Hahha!

So school today was like usual.Same boring thing repeating itself for eternity. And so,let's just skip that part of the story.

Hmm.I was made fun of by the usual people.No elaboration required. Oh! You should see how Shikin does her moonwalk.I swear it doesn't look like a moonwalk,but more like a insane chicken walking back and forth and flapping its wings at the same time. HAHAH! And ultimately, it was ever so retarded.Hahah! Shikin janga buat keje bodoh la.But she really made our day.I mean first thing in the morning in school,she already start to make people laugh.Joker.But thanks anyway!

Seriously, I have nothing much to talk about today.Except that I have a super bad headache during school hours,especially during Lit. Grrh.

Tomorrow's is my brother's birthday,and yet, I haven't bought him his present. Thinking of buying him this striped Giordano polo tee. It'll definitely look good on his model body.I'm just so jealous that he has this nice curves on his body and like super long legs.Minus the slight bulge that is. Inherited by my dad. Jealous,jealous,jealous.

I shall stop here for today.

Till then loves.<333

2009-07-01T18:57:00.006+08:00

School has reopened! Am I supposed to jump for joy or go "ohh myy gayy, it's school-ing time!". I don't even know if school-ing IS a proper word for it.HAHAHA!

I just have one very ohhemmgee comment. Mdm Tang look super slim now. I really do want to know what's her secret. I tell you, IT IS LIKE WHOA WHOA! AMAZING LA!

Anyway, Maths lesson was always the same. Brain dead by the time we started the chapter of Area of Region. Another shot-in-the-heart chapter. Wait until Kinematics,that one, I am glad to say ~~GOODBYE~~! hahha.

For Physics,I had to change class because of a banding system.But I thank God that I did change class.I swear that I AM LOVING PHYSICS NOW<333.thanks to Mr Lim Yiu Tian. You know what?I FINALLY understood what the heck is a solenoid and how the heck to do the Flemmings Left hand rule as well as the Right Hand Grip rule. Amazing?Definitely. And I would try my best to get at least a B3 for Physics.At least. Hahah.

Same thing goes for Chemistry.Changed class too.Now in Mr Hoon's class.It's actually quite okay la. I somehow and somewhat understand better. But unfortunately, my seat in that class is not as pleasant as it may sound. Thanks Sheena,thanks so much for making me realise it I tell you...I shouldn't have told you in the first place.Hmph.HAHAHAH! I shall not elaborate.

And Rifdi, thank you for spreading to the whole wide world about my opinion of ____________ and ____________. The whole world does not need to know.It's so tak perlu punya case. Its confidential beb. Secret between me and you. Ok,that sounds wrong.Hahah. Now,Sheena is tagging it on my tagboard. Is it cool or whaaat? You don't need to even think of an answer for that question,seriously. And did I tell you, today they came up with new names for me yet again?Oh and I am so surprised???Nah,its quite funny I should say. Hot air balloon, and say whatthehelldoesithavetodowithyou? Will not say,just try to figure.Break the code.That's all I'm hinting you.

During Literature lesson,I was bored to death.And so,I started writing a poem. Great time to get inspirations from huh? Literature,Poem?Get it?Only the first 2 stanzas.

I still long for your presence,
There's no reason that I should
You still linger in me,
That's what I abhor about you
That ghostly figure of yours,
Haunts me in every step I take
Painstakingly...

If given the opportunity,
I'd swear to leave everything behind
You were hope to me,
Though there was barely anything good about you
Should you not have drown me in my tears,
I wouldn't have lost sanity,I wouldn't have been
Abandoned...

If its finished,probably it'll make more sense.I don't know why I felt so emo during Lit.Hhaha.Okay,I want to watch Suci..stupid show,but dang,I'm addicted.

Toodles loves.

Draggy.

2009-06-24T10:58:00.003+08:00

Transformers 2 was DRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGY.

I slept during the movie.Well,for 10 mins I think.Even dad says so.But it was rather humourous.That was the only thing I enjoyed,it was funny. The action was just too much. It is 2.5 hours long.if you can bear with it,then go ahead and watch.

Oh,and I saw Beng How,he was sitting in the same row as me.Luckily he didn't see me,like whoa.

I wanted to go shopping with mom,but mom cabot-ed first knowing that I too wanted to cabot. She wanted me to watch that Transformers 2.Regrets.I was buying the popcorn,when I came back mom was not there anymore.GEEZ. Spoiler.Cannot go shopping.Nevermind.Shall find another chance to do so.

I'M YOUR BIGGEST FAN,
I'LL FOLLOW YOU UNTIL YOU LOVE ME
PAPARAZZI....!!

YOU LIVE IN MY MEMORIES FOREVERMORE I SWEAR.....!!

Ohh emm gee..! I am addicted to PAPARAZZI and PART OF THE LIST. Melts melts,especially Part of the list. SWEEET song. Love it to bits!

I better go take my shower now.I just woke up. HAHAA.yes.apparently I reached home at 11.20pm,when the movie ended at 9.45pm.

SO LONG.....PEOPLE.

2009-06-22T21:14:00.004+08:00

I HAVE NOT EVEN TOUCHED A SINGLE HOMEWORK.

how about that?wonderful or whaaat?I am going to start tomorrow. Yes,no more procrastinating khaliesah! I can do a miracle man. I believe in miracles, HAAAAIIIYAAAKKK!!

And I still have a part of a testimonial to do.Still halfway done. I seriously DO NOT know what to write! If you self-praise too much, people would somehow think you have too high hopes. And then you'd be a goner! So this one, thinking in process.. ZzZzZz.

Alright, tomorrow Lit Fest, and I haven't memorised my lines yet. Like ZOMG!! Then still have to practise BRUCE LEE sound.You wouldn't want to know,it's humiliating to me. But maybe for others it'll be funny. Would upload the video if Jolene wants to send it me..Oh well. It's quite funny actually.Really,it is. Oh and we practised the whole thing within 1.5 hours! ACHIEVEMENT! <33 Hope everything goes well tomorrow.

Now,left with TWO questions.

SHOULD I WATCH TRANSFORMERS 2 FOR FREE?

or

SHOULD I GO SHOPPING AT VIVO?

anyone bother to answer that for me??

2009-06-21T14:38:00.002+08:00

JYEAH!

Got myself a new skin. Heh,elmo.Wanted to have Cookie Monster to tribute to those cookie monster lovers, but there was something wrong with the codes,so decided to have ELMO instead.

Anyway, I am so bored at home. Oh wait,

I HAVE OFFICIALLY FINISHED WATCHING BOYS OVER FLOWERS. LIKE WOOOHOO!
JEALOUS???

haha.WTH.Mom's friend lent me the discs. Was so happy watching on thursday. And i finished watching it at 3am on friday morning.cool huh?

you know what?i've got nothing to say.

GOODBYE. <3

2009-06-15T21:47:00.005+08:00

do you know how dreading it is to even study THE subject stated?? like ohh emm geee. cannot make it! the sight of it already makes me faint! gosh!

nevermind.

actually,i have nothing to blog. just want to say HELLLLO! to anyone reading my blog.

lame,i know.

and,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AUNTY! semoga di murahkan rezeki,and stay pretty pretty as always.wakakaka! all of a sudden,everyone around me is getting so old. and i realise, i would be like them tooo.

kwangkwangkwang.......! =.=

LOLS,okay...

i am khaliesah, reporting for bed, and good night.

2009-06-14T20:56:00.002+08:00

WAKAKKAKAKAKKA!!

today,went to my cousin's birthday party,some sort like that la. their[my twin cousins] 21st birthday,like wow.old already.hahah! they look so sweeet on their birthday la please. and abang iman, maintain, not bad ah. bila ni nak tunang ah korang berdua?? boleh jugak adek planning planning sikit kalau nak tunang. cheybah.

oh and did i say their birthday cake was superbly huge???cool stuff.

anyway, pictures with mom. my phone cam not very good la.going to get myself one soon.haiz.pening kepala aku,nak beli banyak benda.

and yesterday, had gentarasa thing. all of them went out, but i had to go home coz had to go for kenduri. bleaghs. if i had gone with them, confirm kecoh. LOL. but gentarasa was absolutely funny! hanah saw her scandal [fadlur rahman]. and suhaimi yusof and khairuddin samsudin were funny as always.tak pernah tak kelakar. it was like natural like that,seriously. i want to go again! i mean just the two of them acting. i can laugh until i go ballistic!!

alright, i have some sort of created a schedule for homework and revision. i have to finish my homework by this week. its a must!! then,next week i should be starting on my revision,especially physics! i so totally need help. nevermind, i would try my best to ask my cousin for help in physics. i need H.E.L.P in it,because i really suck in that subject.geez.how i wish i have a memory stick large enough to store as well as organise all the formulae in my head.

and someone had been nice by teaching me how to score in SS! haha,mentang-mentang dia macam pro gitu la ehh. but anyway, thanks shahrin! i really didn't know PEEL can be used for SS or history.like errr,doesn't fit that subject.shall make an effort to improve using this method! and i owe you one,if this method does really works for me.i was only told to write and no organisation.hahaha!

and oh gawd,the condition of my room is like pfft. so messy!!!

oh yes,my trip to the zoo next week is cancelled,like bleagh. postponed to the week after. mom can't take leave next week. haiz,sad life.and the week after,going to watch 2 movies. mom got free tickets to watch premier of transformers.and the next day,probably going to watch drag me to hell with hanah and syahmi. heh. seems like i cant do my revision ahh.

eh,dah lah. i need to iron clothes!

dada!!

2009-06-12T22:37:00.004+08:00

ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID,
ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID;
*LARI THROUGH MY HEAD,
LARI THROUGH MY HEAD;

*run for Malay

and that song was random much.hahah.i just miss that song somehow.reminds me of the memories of me and my dear cousin.

HEY NADIAH AMEERAH!

if you are reading this, i need to tell you something!! I MISS YOU SO MUCHHH!!! AHHH. tell me when you're coming back taus! i will fetch you from the airport.must take picture with you!hahah! i miss your crazy loud loud crazy laughter la. and i bet you miss me,hah! LOL. and you take care over there! forget about @#@$@$. i'll be there for you whenever you need me! love you much much! XOXOXOXO

aww.miss her much. hhaha. hope she comes back very soon!! then i can spend some time with her.

i need to go shopping.mum!please bring me shopping.oh and mum and dad decided that we would be going to indonesia next year. whee. and at the end of this year, i think they allowed me to bag pack to go either to indonesia or malaysia,provided that i earn that money myself.no problem!

i really can't wait for tomorrow,23rd of june,graduation night,end of the year and next year! happy happy life.

i realised that i am closer to mum now that i dont have a maid to help with the household chores.oh wells.mum and dad planning not to get anymore maids for us,which means that we have extra money for other things.yipee ya ya yipee yipee ya.....! somehow,the family is knitted better now.and i feel so grateful for being in this family for once. i guess now that i have no maids to share secret with,then i shall start sharing secrets with my mum.like whoa!

whoops,its already 2300. i need to sleep and wake up feeling....fresh.

it's done.

2009-06-12T15:47:00.002+08:00

this would be a short post.

i had school today,but only attended SS. I didn't attend Chemistry and Physics cause was breaking down in cold sweat although i was in an air-con room. felt like going to have fever,but actually i was having __________ [F.I.T.B]. half way through SS, i was already about to go blank. everything was blur. so,decided to go home after telling mr damian. geegeemama helped me find mr damian. thanks gee!! i owe you one!

then when i reached home,i looked at my hand and i saw bite marks? i think i didn't realise that i bit myself in the bus on the way home.i was trying to relieve the pain. oh wells.

thanks to those who asked if i am okay already! haha. feel much better now compared to just now. at least now, i am only a quarter dead unlike in the morning whereby i was almost close to being dead.

geez.

life's a bitch?it isn't actually,it's just testing your mental power.

2009-06-11T21:44:00.003+08:00

Okay back again!

you know,maturity is vital in life.without it, you will start spewing out meaningless words everywhere.it takes time to be matured.the fact that i have lived on earth for almost sixteen years,i understand the world better.i see no problem that is too difficult to solve.the solution can be at your fingertips,if you just twitch your nerves in the most important organ in the body and also analyse the root of the problem.

OH PLUS,it can really help you in your english.amazing things that maturity can do to human beings.been there,done that!i'm hoping to learn more amazing things with maturity.cool stuff.

you know what?i have the potential to score A1 in both maths! yay me!i am exhilarated to know that i can manage to do integration despite the hurdle i have to go through before getting it right.i didn't know it was that easy.and i am managing them well.haha.I HAVE BEEN STUDYING FOR O'S TOO.in fact,i am able to focus better despite the situation.i am surprised at the wonders i am able to do during this holiday.i shall work my ass out next semester so that my results would not be as bad as what some people claim it would be.in fact,after reviewing my results,it isnt that bad after all.just a little more practise is all i need.

whee!prelims are coming in 12 weeks' time.and the class is getting better in every step they take! hoorah for 4E4! i got to ace this one, so that i can at least know where i stand.i should be able to get a 10. or at least a 12.whee.ambitious.

currently,mrs wong isnt taking us for english.ms annie tan would be coming in for english lessons in semester 2,i guess. oh,and, 4E4 won't have air-con classroom already.aww,sad.moved to 4T1 classroom.we got to make full use of the air con tomorrow.haha.

i guess that's all for now.and i forgot,being thick-skinned isnt bad after all.you can make full use of that.if i wasn't,i wouldn't dare to act a crazy character in front of a huge audience.no one would do that.and i aced it in the play.

tatas loves.

gossiping-idling talk or rumour
joking-something said or done to provoke laughter or cause amusement

2009-06-11T19:05:00.002+08:00

oh.
emmm.
geee.

I have been gone for many many many days. And sorry brigitte for using way too many vulgarities.okay,from now on, I would try to contain my use of vulgarities and use it only at appropriate times.

hmm.seems like i have newly found fans on my tagboard,but sadly,they only left their names as passerby.i do welcome them very much.haha.but you got to be better than that.i look forward to your future comments,my fans!

oh yes! i can't wait for this saturday as well as the 23rd of june! haha.there's Gentarasa and the Literature Festival thing.actually only the part where we need to act.so fun! can't wait for that,because i did the script for literature festival.

okay,i will blog again later.gotta watch my show first.tata people.love you loads.muach.
<3

2009-06-01T17:37:00.001+08:00

Malay O's was screwed.

My final words for the day,

I AM DOOMED. X__X

2009-05-27T18:36:00.002+08:00

OMG! I think I am down for PTM.

F.
U.
C.
K.

Gawd! My does my result have to be utterly disgusting?Goodness.I think my dad is going to scream at me very,very,very,very soooooooooon!!! Let me be mentally prepared for that to come. NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Damn. Malay intensive was ever so gruelling. Gosh. In 4 more days, I WILL be sitting for my O's.[Mrs Wong,I have finally aced in creating a proper, structured sentence with WILL.Be proud of me. =D ] HAHAHA!

PEOPLE,I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT,which I don't think it matters now because apparently I already told everyone.But nevermind,let me emphasise it ONCE AGAIN.

I AM VERY INTO BOYS OVER FLOWERS CURRENTLY. AND NOW,IT SEEMS LIKE A DRUG FOR ME. ANYONE HAS ANYTHING TO CURE THIS THING?

Done.Someone really help me out. I couldn't get my itchy hands not to go to the website,Youtube. Oh gawd.

HELP.
ME.
OUT.

2009-05-22T18:46:00.002+08:00

I AM BRAIN DRAINED. X___X

Oh gawd. Do you know how mentally tired I am? And you thought that Monday was your last paper,and then you got to know there are another 144156841565456556 more papers to go. WTF. Like seriously,I couldn't even think properly,whatsmore to think STRAIGHT. I need fresh air,I need to go out, I NEED A LIFE!

I have to sit for more MALAY PAPERS. And currently,I have totally ran out of ideas of what to write for my karangan.Like eurgh,it's annoying.

anyway,I was blog hopping and like OMG, there's this one oh-my-eff-he-is-cute guy.Hhaha.Random much.I guess I went blog hopping in search of cute guys.No life? Realised that many centuries ago.

AGM today was screwed. How pathetic could it be? We waited ONE HOUR for the room to be opened.Like oh my fuck, was that even supposed to happen on AGM? Officially passed down to the juniors, and poor new elected president and vice president had to go for their very first meeting,and they were late.All thanks to,i know who,you know who,they know who. It was kind of funny seeing how tensed the juniors were. WE,THE SENIORS,EXPECT A GRAND POP FROM ALL OF YOU JUNIORS!

wearesuchgoodseniorshowcanyounothavethatforus?

So like anyways,after paper did the AGM powerpoint slides.My fuck,it was superbly last minute please.HAHAHA! We finished the slides and crapped our way through within let's see 40 minutes? Cool stuff huh?

Oh,and after Malay O's going to shop! I'm out of clothes. I need to buy a brand new cupboard of clothes like ASAP. EMERGENCY HERE. We're going for this Gentarasa thingy at NYP. SBH kushh ygxs tersygkxs will be dressed in colour codes black and white.Okay,why did I type like that.....? Oh well. Gonna be half half I think.See first la.

I feel like sleeping N.O.W but can't because it's almost prayers time. GAH. I feel hypnotised and my eyes are just like closing in...

FIVE.....
FOUR.....
THREE.......
TWO........
ONE......

SHUT DOWN.

2009-05-20T17:04:00.007+08:00

Demoted

Humiliated

DEMORALISED

Bereaved

Mortified

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

How do you think I faired based on the words above?Gosh,today sucked big time.That will still be continued tomorrow.And the humiliation just goes on.I am so very demoralised by my Malay marks. Like eurgh. I failed my paper 2,how bad can that be? And let's see. Mother Tongue O's is like in 2 weeks time.As a matter of fact, it is less than 2 weeks away. Just look and my results for Malay. I made history in MY life by getting myself a just-nice B4 for Malay.Never before was I even near to that band. Oh gosh.

Let's SKIP the whole Malay thing. Because it makes me feel so bad. My A1 for Malay just flew past me in a blink of an eye. Chemistry,oh well, I had a C6. I was confident of the answers, BUT, due to my consistent carelessness, I got a C6. Oh well, I went to flip through the paper again,guess what? I lost around 10-12 marks because I was such a short-sighted person who couldn't open my eyes big enough[EVEN THOUGH ITS ALREADY LIKE BURSTING OUT] to even read the question properly.

Okay EMaths. IMPROVEMENT! Just a little bit more and I smell at least an A2 near me. By prelims,I WILL GET THAT A1 OF MINE. Work on my careless mistake.

Social Studies. I failed by 4 marks.Am I supposed to be proud of that or what???? I think I scored better for SBQ,although my Comparison Qn I got a Z-E-R-O. Perfect! Nah,I MUST work on my explanation and my Comparison skill AND I am positive that I can at least achieve a B4 by prelims.And plus,I could have done better if I had only done TWO OTHER FACTORS for SEQ. Yes, I went to do more than that,and it wasted my effort.

During June holidays, I will mug even harder and even more than what I had. I think I just need a little bit more to get through it. I just need a little more practice,hard work and a bit more brains so that I can get past this hurdle.

Tomorrow will be another exciting day ahead. There will be an aisle with a red carpet specially for F9s. I look forward to see it walk on that red carpet. And why am I welcoming it with open arms?Because I couldn't expect more.

dead X(

2009-05-19T15:13:00.004+08:00

I FEEL DEAD. X(

Okay,had council meeting today. I was late for half an hour. Coz had some misunderstanding. Bong and Mong were stranded outside because they didn't dare to come in.HAHAHA! We were the only Sec 4s there,so malu please.No,actually,there was one more Sec 4 from Malay Dance. Having this Arts Night event on 5th June.Arts Night was the name of the event.The council is in the process of changing the name. Because, Arts Night just sounded so..... cliche. We're changing it to something like "Essence of the Arts". Like way much better. Oh, please do come for this event. Opened to the Performing Arts Alumni and Parents of Swiss.

Let's forget about that.Many more meetings to come.BUT,it will not be the 3 of us. It'll be a new batch of leaders. Yay?! After that waste-of-my-time meeting, went to West Mall to eat at KFC and to discuss who will take over the CCA after we step down. Had a great time scrutinizing the new batch. Laughed our asses off. Tomorrow we will have a meeting with the other Sec Fours and teachers to agree with our selection. Hope they would 110% agree to it. Carefully selected puh-lease.

Alright,I am very nervous.Tomorrow we will be getting back our papers.Its freaky.I dont know what to expect like seriously.Oh me gosh!I hope I did better than my CA1. I mean I don't want to be discouraged after working hard for this exam.Okay,no matter what I have to get through it and work even harder for my prelims.

Nothing much to say.

2009-05-17T19:56:00.002+08:00

Just thinking of O's, just freaks me out. In a matter of less than 6 months,I will be sitting for my O Levels and that would definitely leave me with butterflies in my stomach. After 4 years of secondary school education,it will all beat down to only 2 weeks of my life.And all of it, for this recognised examination.Oh gosh! So,freeeaaakky!

And some thing is continuously bothering me.I don't know what.But it just bothers me a lot.Geez.It's like a leech that is stuck on me,and can never get off.Grrrh.

And one last thing.I owe a lot of people presents! Oh gosh! I am so sorry! I'll try to get you guys a present ASAP! So sorry!!

changed blogskin!

2009-05-16T18:22:00.002+08:00

Alright,I've just changed my blogskin.I'm happy with it except for the tagboard part.Lazy to change the colours la..Heh.But going to change it again soon.Currently looking for something,unique & childish?

So exams.ONE MORE TO GO TILL TOUCH DOWN!
Wait,I still have my Malay O's coming up in 2 WEEKS time!Oh gosh! I am so scared.Darn it.Coz this year I screwed my Oral to bits.I stammered a lot and even asked the teacher to give me some time to think halfway through the conversation!

But,somehow,I just feel a sense of achievement for this year.For the first time,I really mugged! Like achievement!

Oh,and I think the drama club will be performing our SYF piece again at CDANS.That's still an if.There's going to be a meeting on Marking Day,so we'll discuss it.

Nothing to say now.So bye.

EXAMS.

2009-05-05T12:31:00.004+08:00

I dread the day to come.

But I have to face the truth.

Exams have started. Standing ovation, please.

Today had Social Studies. AND FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE,I FINISHED THE WHOLE PAPER. aww.I know you're jelaous of me. Give ME a round of applause.Haha. Insanity is back.

HOWEVER,looking back at yesterday,I did not finish my English paper.OOPS. what an irony. Oh well.

Anyway,I did my best for SS.I hope I would get good grades there.

Saturday studied with Syahmi. My goodness he was like 3.5 hours late???!! I waited for him for one hour at the MRT station! He pissed me off,really. He went to the airport on his own in the end. Let's not talk about that.

Okay,my cousin tagged me on my Facebook,and I find this thing ubber cool.

Using only song names from ONE ARTISTE, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think.

Pick Your Artist: The Pussycat Dolls

Are you male or female: Glamour Girl [err...?]

Describe yourself : Too Woman [oops.]

How do you feel about yourself: BEEP. [HEHHE]

Describe where you currently live: Elevator [LOVE IT!]

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Top Of The World.

Your favorite form of transportation: We went as far as we felt like going?

Your best friend is: Halo [not Beyonce.NICE SONG!]

Your favorite color is: Painted Windows.

What's the weather like: Whatchamacallit [HAHAHA!]

Favorite time of day: Ta-ta

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: When I Grow Up

What is life to you : Whatever Happens

What is the best advice you have to give: Out of this Club

If you could change your name, what would it be: Mr.Operator [I don't want to change gender!]

Your favorite food is: Buttons. [ROFL.]

Thought for the Day: I DON'T NEED A MAN!

How I would like to die: Hush Hush

My soul's present condition: Played.

My motto: U Don't Own Me. [HAH.]

That's all I have for NOW.Tatata.

2009-04-25T21:46:00.003+08:00

I woke up in the morning today,and I thought I would wake up feeling good. Not until I saw a missed call on my phone. I went to find out who called me at 9.30 in the morning.I thought it was someone close to me,as in my friends or family member.

To my surprise,it was a familiar number.A number that I thought I would forget,that it'll disappear into thin air. And the person who called had entered my life as a stranger,stepped out of my life as if I were an invisible soul to his eyes. And today,he re-entered my life,as if nothing had happened in the past.

After SIX MONTHS that you were gone,you came in again?What do you want from me?I still don't understand. You're freaking me out.

Yes, those feelings I had for you is still lingering in me.But why must it be now?Why can't it be earlier or later?Why now?

Around the corner.

2009-04-24T20:56:00.005+08:00

Something is around the corner,of my eyes,of my mind.
Yes,you've guessed it.

SEMESTRAL ASSESSMENT ONE aka MID-YEAR EXAMS.

I am so freaking nervous.Geez.It's really scary thinking about it.It's merely a week away!My goodness. This week was hell.Each day we can have up to 3 tests, CONSECUTIVELY.
No,it was actually only for yesterday's case. Had Physics test, Chemistry and E Maths test yesterday.Screwed the papers.
And don't say anything about homework. It's really piling up and I think,currently, it's as high as Taipei 101! Like oh my gosh! This week had to do plenty and plenty of compositions for both English and Malay.
And Maths. 5 Mock papers. DEAD. X(

I really think the Singapore education system is trying to kill every student studying here. My goodness,the stress level! I think Singapore will soon be known for the highest number of people with mental illness. Imagine,the competition level,the stress level,the maximum amount of hard work has to be counted for if you want to survive in Singapore.Basically what you need to survive in Singapore is to have the brains. People with no brains,work harder. That's how life is in Singapore. You can't get anywhere without education can you?

Yes, Singapore is working on to become a First World country,but hey, when the time comes whereby almost all the young generation have their degrees, who is going to do the dirty jobs? The graduants?Seriously,would Singaporeans even want to do those jobs? That is what I always ask myself. Like,what if,there were no other high position jobs that fit my position as a degree holder and that only the lowest wage jobs were vacant?Would I want to accept that job?

Let us think about it. Would you rather die from hunger/starvation or would you rather work with whatever the wage you'll get and be able to fill your stomach, at least a scant amount? Sometimes, we need to ignore the amount of pay that a company gives us. As long as we are able to sustain ourselves, I guess that's all that matters. At the end of the day, what is most important is to be able to live and I guess,to also be able to adapt to the Singapore system which is ever-challenging. To think about it, what are we trying to fight for? For recognition? Or are we supposedly to be fighting for our lives? It doesn't make sense.

I do agree that it challenges us and test us our mental strength/resilience,but at the same time,it is just too much. All they're looking for are people with brain power and talented people.We go through education for that matter? Does it make any sense?It does not make any cents[sense] to me.

*******
********
********
************
*********

HOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDDDD IIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!

What the heck did I just babbled about? Wow.I could have written a composition there!! BUT, I was telling the truth.HEH.Eh,whatever la. It's 11 now,and I want to sleep!

oh btw, DRAMA CLUB GOT A BRONZE AWARD.
Job well done.Standards have gone up,so it's okay. There will always be another one in 2 years' time.

OK. TOOODALALALA!

2009-04-16T13:14:00.002+08:00

Lately,I have been feeling superbly sick,and I do not know why. So today, I am at home resting. Geez.

Yesterday was SYF day, and I really don't care what results they get, because it was kind of screwed. MinLi and I were kind of pissed because there were so many background sounds that were heard. But it's okay, let's just move on with it.

I am glad that SYF is over.I finally can concentrate on my Mid-Year and stuff. Hah! My brain needs to switch to Exam Mode as soon as possible.

silence kills.

2009-04-10T12:04:00.005+08:00

A glance of silence,

Means nothing much.

But when silence takes control,

It annihilates your kingdom

A kingdom you build since young,

A territory you never thought could be overpowered

Wrecked,is the word to describe you now.

Your smile can be contrary

Your tears tell a thousand tales

You are completely discombobulated by everything you face

And you ask yourself,

"Was it equitable?"

What you see,may not be what you'd gain

Look around,

Was there really a path of guidance?

You'd wonder your way through along with;

Confusion.

Frustration.

Debilitation.

Hesitation.

Engulfing you every step of the way.

You feel helpless,

For yourself,

For the people around you,

For those who loved you,

For those who despise you.

All you needed was :

Comfort.

Be it a hug,

Praise,

A song to sing,

But most of all,

You needed

Him.

That was out of random. Just feeling schizophrenic currently. As you can tell from the poem,it's all over the place. Did that on purpose.Sorry to have made you guys confused. And another key point,I am not refering to any guy when I say Him. I was refering to God where I get comfort from.If you really read it properly.

Anyway,cross country yesterday was okay. Walked all the way except for the last part of the race.Oh well. Quite cool.Enjoyed the breeze and all.Quite fun.Anyway,doing my homework right now.So I think I better finish it first.Alright.

TOODLES.

Cross Country fever??

2009-04-08T20:16:00.003+08:00

Gosh,like seriously,I don't feel like running tomorrow.

Can I just skip it?Feel like watching Fast and Furious but no one want to go with me tomorrow.Boo-hoo.3.2km?My gosh.FEEL SO LAZY.

Oh and anyway,today girls had punishment to wear the skirt very high and tuck all the shirt in.OH MY GOD.It looks so fargly.Lucky only one day.The boys have to do that for 1 week?I think.

Been acting retarded lately.I dont know why.Feeling very high!! Haha.Been like what?Singing??Acting??Like a MAD woman.

MAD AT YOU....

and I don't know the rest.Lets leave it as it is, before I SPOIL it any further.

and really,whats up with people linking me Feizul?

I.
DONT.
GET.
IT.

2009-04-05T11:52:00.002+08:00

Gosh. These past few days had been hectic. Rehearsal here and there. MISSING MY LESSONS BECAUSE OF REHEARSALS.

Let's begin with Friday. My gosh. Suckish day.Chem SPA for the drama club students had to be postponed to tomorrow. Geez. In the afternoon had rehearsal at ACS Barker. My goodness, is this the bloody standard we are going to perform. I don't really blame the casts nor the crew,but some people just had to make things more complicated. And some of the cast think they belong to the casts and they should not even help the crew to carry the props on stage. Easy to say, they went into the hall, EMPTY-HANDED when there were loads of props to be carried in.Where the hell is the UNITY?

And I guess I was over the top too. Vented out my anger on them. The Sec Fours were laughing at what I said? Maybe they are not used with me scolding the club,they usually see the smiley side of me.But hey,I get angry too you know. Let's leave that aside.

Yesterday,had to run first before rehearsals. At first, I didn't run, but when Shao Fen came,I guess I needed to run with her coz she was WALKING.It was kind of funny.Her running speed, is equivalent to Brigitte's walking speed. So ran with her in my skirt.I feel so yucky after that.Then helped with the props.

.BLABLABLA.

suddenly the house is filled with silence.i know i was wrong,but there's no need for you to shut me out.

2009-03-28T20:16:00.005+08:00

just saw this quiz on hannah's blog,so, i guess since im bored,i just do this quiz.

1.Beside your lips,where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
my cheeks?

2.How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
relieved,coz its a brand new day.

3.Who the last person you took picture with?
that's so long ago! i really have forgotten who.

4.Would you consider yourself be spoiled?
YES. I am spoilt, by myself.Hahah!

5.Would you ever donate blood?
I did once.Oh well.almost fainted.

6.Have you ever had a bestfriend who is an opposite sex?
DUH! And still do! ~~the one who always bugs me.~~

7.Do want someone to die?
erm...let's see.do you want to?

8.What does your last text msg says?
let's just keep that as what it says in my inbox.SENSITIVE ISSUE.

9.What are you thinking right now?
thinking of how to answer the questions?

10.Do you wish someone was with you right now?
should i say yes?yes,I do.

11.What time did you go to sleep last time?
7.30pm. EMOX.

12.Where did you buy the clothes/T-shirts that you are wearing right now?
a shop! duh!

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
definitely. and it's... YOU

14.Who was the last person to text you?
rifdi?

Following 10 people who are suppose to do this quiz:
Let's put it as this way. ANYONE WHO FEELS BORED CAN JUST DO THIS QUIZ.
fair enough?

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2009-03-28T19:27:00.005+08:00

YOU SPIN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND!

Hahahah!! Okay,I am feeling so much much better today. Yesterday was emoing after school. I dont know some things are better left unsaid rather than it is being said!! Let's forget about yesterday,and move on.

They can take the places that we said we will go

all the broken dreams take everything

just take it away

but they can ~~never~~ have yesterday

Heh.So slacked a lot today.I don't feel like doing anything. I feel lazy. Really lazy. Exams are coming up. In a FIVE weeks time. SYF also coming up in THREE weeks time. Time will fly fast. I really got nothing to talk about now.Haiz.I am rather bored. Gosh. That's it for now.

You know that I miss you

~~I just wanna kiss you~~

But I can't right now

So baby kiss me thru the phone(Kiss me thru the phone)

I'll see you later on

Kiss me thru the phone(Kiss me thru the phone)

See you when I get home (I get home).

LOVES.I know you'll miss me.awww.

2009-03-20T17:34:00.003+08:00

I realised that I M.I.A-ed for quite some time and so,I shall blog today. Wait, firstly, ignore my previous post. I was feeling so shitty and stuff and so, the words that come with that post were also disoriented and shitty.

Alright,today was a fine day with the sun not shining so brightly. Reached school at 8.15 just to do the props. Tiring day actually.Make-up and hair put on. It was VERY messy,I really got myself confused. Hahaha.But with the NICE people around me, oh well, we finished?? OKAY. The pictures are with brigitte.oh well.

OH.MY.GOSH. I forgot to take my homework from Mrs Wong's locker!! Oh my! I could have like done it today. Oh gosh. Its okay, I'm coming back tomorrow. So I can chiong all my homework by tomorrow. I shall discipline myself to do Maths too. Haiz.

Basically, the whole week was annoyingly boring. Even though its the holiday's it's so boring when you are loaded with so many many homework AND RESPONSIBILITY!Geez. O Level's are months away,specifically,Mother Tongue which is in June. How great! SA1 is barely a month away. And what am doing? NOTHING. oh gosh, I really need to start studying my PHYSICS. Gosh, I so suck in that subject! Help,anyone????

Not to forget, SYF is on the 15th of April AND I still don't see a PERFECT play on stage. Casts are still in their own world. Props not done. Hair and make-up kind of screwed.Costumes still not settled. A thousand and one things not yet prepared.

HOW TO GET GOLD?

Maybe I should purchase books that guides you step-by-step like "HOW TO ACHIEVE GOLD FOR SYF" . Yes, I know I am lame.But reeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllyyy,it's happening. I am so stressed. I think the stage managers are already going insane with the whole situation.Or so, I think.

I think I would not be blogging for quite sometime,because TERM TWO is one hell of a term. So, I need to concentrate on my studies,get good grades, and then I'll blog?Or maybe if I feel like venting out on something,then I will blog.If not,

SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS.

or maybe not.

2009-03-13T20:49:00.004+08:00

Ok, it was quite a day today. Went to Little India to buy some make up and hair stuff with the 3 teachers as well as rifdi. Somehow, I think I spend too much time with rifdi that people think of the UNEXPECTED of us. please, we are nothing more than what you think. Close friends are just the words to describe us. walked her walked there. and the teachers left us stranded at Mustafa Centre on our own. great.

Went to OG ,look look at nike and puma bag. One word to describe the price , "WOW!"

And oh, I flunked AMaths test today. Gotta get ready to be in Mr Liu office soon. That's going to be bad.But it's okay.Shall work my butt out during the holidays.

Been feeling kind of down lately. My history popped right in my eyes. Somehow, I just cant get them off. The fond memories of what happened in the past is just killing me. I know I shouldn't be thinking about it at this point of time and that I should be focusing on my O Levels,but I can't help it. Why does it have to be now? The songs that we used to sing together and the time that we spent with each other. I just miss them. Too much, in fact.

I'm so sorry now

For the pain I caused you

Wont you please forgive

Please

But you don't love me anymore

You don't want me anymore

There's a sign on your door

No vacancy, just emptiness

Without your love,

I'm homeless

Guess that's how I am feeling.Lately, been dreaming about someone I shouldn't be thinking nor dreaming nor speaking of now.

Kasihku,

Sampai di sini

Kisah kita jangan tangisi

Keadaannya

Bukan karna kita berbeda

Dengarkan lagu

Lagu ini melodi rintihan hati ini

Kisah kita berakhir di Januari

The song we used to sing together for each other. Sweet isn't it?But now, it's killing me when I hear that song. I break down so easily.

I.NEED.A.BREAK.FROM.THIS.SHIT.

~~imisseverysixteenthofeachmonth.iwantthemback.~~

2009-03-07T17:25:00.002+08:00

Gosh, feeling so sick right now. My tap is running continuously since yesterday morning. It's all thanks to Jiong Han. =.=

Yesterday didn't attend CCA because of my runny nose and something else [Something that ONLY girls would have]. Yeah, it really killed me. LOL. Geez, it's really annoying. Thanks Jiong Han for passing this disease to me. Haiz.

Okay,today had to go for some bengkel thing. Quite okay. Nothing really new. It's quite a waste of time actually. But heck. Had a fun time, doing what I am best at, LAUGHING. And ohh! Bukit Batok's school is really nice! They even have a lift and 2 PODIUMS! How I wished our school has those facilities.In my dreams I guess. and blah blah blah.

Got nothing much to talk about this week.Except that a lot of tests are coming up next week. I am mentally blocked currently.Let me end this off.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY GELO!!

A SUPERBLY LONG DAY

2009-03-03T21:20:00.004+08:00

Alright, it REALLY was a LOOOOOOONG day for me.

Special day today, had FIVE periods of Maths today. We started the day with MATHS, and ended the day with MATHS. Wonderful. But Miss Lim made it bearable and fun as usual.

So,after school was the LONGEST ever.I felt that I just wasted an eternity there. But hahah, found out A LOT about the teachers. I didn't know our school teachers were so bubbly and oh-so-tak-malu kind. This refers especially to Mr Indra. HE IS SO CUTE LA! HAAHAH!

Rifdi and I were laughing throughout the time when we were in the staff room doing our work. Ada ke patut Mr Indra panggil Mr Terrence Wong si Buncit? Merepek je Mr Indra. And oh! Mr Indra bakes nice cupcakes! He even decorated the cupcakes with cartoon characters! It was really nice! Mr Indra sure kembang when he sees this. Had a good time bonding with the teachers la. As in, you will never get to see another side of the teachers when they are teaching. You will really feel as in they're really your colleagues at WORK! Even for Mr Wong, I didn't expect him to have the other side of him I saw in the staff room. COOL X-PERIENCE!

Finished the rehearsal thing at what, 4.40?? After rehearsal went for CCA. Actually it was rather pointless because once both of us reached the Dance Studio [ yes,laugh. We are using the dance studio,not a drama studio.] , it was time for break! Amazing. Rifdi and I felt rather hungry,but the Malay food stalls were closed already. Anyway, went up to the Art Room and did some props.

Valval and Giselle reflected on "mirror"

Valval at work. LIKE WOAH.

Giselle the SUPERvisor.

Yeah. That was all we did for today's session. Yes, very little. But what to do. Haiz. NASIB BADAN. Though it was extremely long today,which I dont know why. But maybe because of the 5 periods of Maths, but still, looking on the bright side,

4E4 WE.ARE.IMPROVING! YEAH! :D

I think I should stop now. Got to study for History and practice my speech.

~~-it's killing me deep inside,and I intend to keep it away from you for the longest time possible.~~

2009-02-26T19:47:00.003+08:00

I feel so tired today. I have no idea why. Although tired, I had a lot of fun today in school. I REALLY LAUGHED TILL MY STOMACH BURST.

So after school, went to eat lunch with shikin, rifdi, hanah, tiq and mir.We were supposed to have SS remedial,but it was cancelled.Then, while we were eating, GELOPO and Syahmi sat at the table behind us. So, shikin went over to annoy both of them who were eating.

Shikin, being shikin, SHE ANNOYED FEIZUL SO MUCH THAT I THINK HE WILL HATE HER FOR CALLING HIM GELOPO. Don't ask why the name, but what the hell. It's called a nickname. Soon, Hanah and me went over to join her. COMBINING FORCES MAKES IT EVEN BETTER.

And it really did. Laughed 3 times as much. Somehow, the canteen was filled with our laughter!!Which also includes stares from teachers and other students. Heck, the life of a Sec 4 student. HAHAHA!

In the end rifdi joined us too and we started creating nicknames for each other! The names sounded so retarded! So let me list down the names?

Feizul - GELOPO
Rifdi - SHREK THE TV SERIES OF NENEKKU SUPERSPY
Shikin - SNORLEX BABI SUPERSPY [SBS]

And for me, I don't know why the random name, but it is LISA CAMPBELL B-CUBE.

Don't need to know what B-CUBE stands for. Don't even bother to figure it out. It's just too disturbing. Or I think it is. Whatever.

We were laughing our asses out for almost 45 minutes? It was really crazy. I probably had build abs at the stomach area!

Today had E-Maths test.I find it quite okay. Just that I think I made quite a lot of mistakes. It looks easy, but it's rather a killer paper if you don't check your work properly. But oh well. I hope I did quite okay in the test.

2009-02-24T08:21:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

OMG!!!

Okay, I just this stupid Career Guidance thing AGAIN.First time I did it, I got

VETERINARIAN

And now I did the survey once again,I had the job of a

LECTURER

Followed by,

EDUCATION OFFICER

I was so wtf about it. That I laughed so freaking hard. HAHAHAH!

I AM NOT GOING TO BE IN THE EDUCATION SECTOR MAN!

NEVER.

Hahaha. Will be posting at home.Currently in school right now. Alright!

LOOOOONG DAY.

2009-02-23T21:16:00.005+08:00

I had a long day today. And it's all those usual shit. But today, I got to know like I had to do some.... wait, I forgot what I was supposed to do. OOPS..!! But anyway, it's just some speech stuff that I had to do and rifdi had to do too. Like bleagh, why must they always pick out drama club people.

Speaking of Drama Club,gonna have CCA tomorrow and I hope it's gonna be something fun la. But have to start on the SYF thing. Somehow, I have a feeling that we won't get Gold. Geez, very scared man. Hope very hard to get Gold for SYF. It'll be a long yet enriching day. Looking forward to it somehow, coz I can plan my make up stuff and buy the things I need!! WHEEEE!!!

I was thinking of uploading some photos, but got no recent photos that I took, so, nah. Anyway LAZY la.

And Rifdi,being, well Rifdi, told the whole world about my first post. Thanks for the advertisement la. I so do not need it. What.The.Hell.

AND plus, I laughed so much today,which I always do. Now, WHAT THE HELL DID I LAUGH ABOUT???

I HAVE NO IDEA.

Srsly, I dont even know why in the first place I was laughing. But heck.

Oh anyway, celebrated my dad's birthday today. And he HAD just turned FORTY-TWO.

Dad.Just admit that you're older now,not younger, FOR GOODNESS SAKE'S.

So ate Chocolate peppermint cake,and I didn't buy him anything coz I srsly didn't know what to buy!! But, anyway.

Happy birthday Dad. May you lead a healthy life and A LONG ONE TOO.

:)

And oh! I really could not believe my eyes when I ACTUALLY passed my SS and HISTORY test! Miracle happens! heh.

LOOOOONG DAY.

2009-02-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

SAD LIFE.

2009-02-22T16:33:00.002+08:00

So today, I didn't go out. I was ultimately cooped up in this house.Garh! It bored me out! The weather just sucks. Geez.

Was sleeping when that friend of mine called. Oh well, it wasn't that boring after a chat with him. Talked nothing,or was it something? I can't seem to remember. But heck, he moved me out of boredom anyway. Thanks babe!

The reason I didn't go out today was actually because,

My grandmother STOLE my maid away from me.

HAHAH! I think I used the wrong term, but whatever. Yeah, I actually planned to go T3 and watch movie with her, but what the hell. My grandmother asked her to follow to go JB. Garh! Spoil my plan to watch Pink Panther with her!!! WHAT.THE.HELL. Then, here I am. Stuck within these FOUR walls.

I don't know what to write about now. Hmmm. Tommorrow there's school. Shit. I haven't studied SS test! Oh-oh. Shall go and study it.

Whatever it is, I have to AT LEAST pass my COMBINED HUMANITIES.geez,one mind-boggling subject.

first entry

2009-02-21T22:18:00.005+08:00

Okay. My first entry for this blog. Oh well, it's been a long time since I blogged. 2 years I guess. So bear with me, still trying to get use to this once again. Now maybe let's just start talking about today.

Well, I did my homework [ usual boring crap.] & revision [bleagh.another one.] . Managed to finish most of them. But after 7pm, I got bored with doing Maths, and closed the book. Geez. I wonder why there are so many homework. So stressed up. But oh well, O Level's sake. What to do. HAIZ..

Planning to go to T3 tomorrow.Hope I am able to go. I'm getting bored within these four walls. Hmph,if I continue to be in here the whole day, I won't be able to move myself away from the kitchen.GGRRRR. IT'S BLARDY IRRITATING!!

Imagine, you lose this amount of weight today, and once you get bored, you start munching this and that.THE NEXT THING YOU KNOW,CONGRATULATIONS! YOU JUST MADE YOURSELF GAIN ANOTHER 10000000000000KG!!!!

I'm still trying to control myself. I've got to. If not, I'll be like a ~~FLABBY~~ teenage girl with so many flabs for show. Horrible sight. LOL. I think I am exaggerating too much. WHOOPS!

So anyway,that's all for now.shall find time to blog again some other day.